Nobody was picked, Nobody was dropped.

I feel a little small again. Like I did when I made the team. That day I made the teamsheet but none of the headlines. That I'm used to, now I don't even make it to the fine print. It's always for guys like Yuvi, Yusuf, Sachin sir. When they return, when they're unavailable, when they're dropped.

So I made a comeback, so what? So I got dropped, so what? Was I even in the team? I have all sorts of questions in my head. First I used to feel like a somebody. But that lasted a few days around my debut. I was so happy to be noticed, it was almost too good. Bhajji talked to me, and MS Bhai encouraged me, I still remember those hugs in Mohali. I will never wash that shirt.

But after that, I've been more out than in. And even when I'm out, nobody notices. Not even the papers in Haryana. Then again they say they do not read papers in Haryana. I spoke with Viru bhai, he said I too should start tweeting, everybody reads tweet. But I know, nobody will follow me, I'm a nobody.

Sometimes I get crazy ideas, like that beard I grew. I was also thinking of wearing a blond wig to get noticed, but Gauti said, don't be stupid. I decided against it, Gauti is a good friend.

In between I started to wear Ed Hardy t-shirts like everybody else. It wasn't easy, at the store they said, "Oye, tere paas body nahin hai...kya pahenega" Then I pulled out a clipping of my debut and stuffed it...they shut the f*** up. Sorry, I don't like to swear but I hate it when people treat me like a nobody. Maybe because I know I am a nobody. But I still feel if they drop me the press should say something. It feels good being noticed.

Thanks for listening, and finally my motto is "Nobody is Perfect"

A Mishra (one day I will make it The Mishra!!)